Microstory 1816: Right to Die

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My children want me to get myself cured. We don’t live too far away from the foundation, and they’re sure that I’ll be able to make an appointment, but I’ve decided not to, and I’ll explain why. I had a very happy, but very tiring, life. I ended up having more children than we planned, and much more than I wanted. My husband—God rest his soul—was loving and caring, but he never did quite understand how taxing it was to carry, deliver, and raise eight entire people, mostly on my own. I didn’t have any multiples, which would have been hell in its own right. I went through all that eight times, and it exhausted me. Anyone who says that being a homemaker isn’t a real job should try to step into my worn out shoes. That’s not to say I don’t love them all to death, or that I regret a single second of it. I just mean that it’s over, and I’m done. Even though they’re all grown up, and I don’t technically have to raise them anymore, it’s not like they stopped coming to me with their problems. There are 24 hours in a day, so that’s...well, I didn’t go to college, so you tell me the chances of getting a call from one of them at any given moment. Again, I love them all more than anything in the world, but I could use a break. I’ve always believed in God, and the afterlife. My parents didn’t drill it into my brain. They were pretty progressive for the time period. They let me make my own choices, but also showed me my options. I decided that there had to be something else out there than just we lowly humans. There has to be someone with a grand design, or else what’s the point of it all? And there has to be some kind of outcome, otherwise what’s the point of it all for me? I’m not saying people shouldn’t take the cure, or that it’s somehow blasphemy. It’s just not for me, and I’ll thank you to respect my wishes.

This was hard for my children to hear. They lamented the fact that their father passed before the cure became available. They don’t want to go through that again, but the cure didn’t always exist, of course, so they should have wrapped their head around the concept by now. I keep calling it a cure, but that may not be the right word for it. It is no pill, nor even an injection. It’s a man. It’s a man with the power to heal, and if he had come to us with claims of righteous divinity, I might have believed that he was the second coming of Christ. Instead, he told us that he was just a person who had been in the right place at the right time, and would be using his gifts to help as many people as possible. Some worship him anyway, but I prefer to take his word for it. The real Messiah would not say that he’s not. Regardless of who he truly is, the proof is in the results. Unlike the faith healers of yesteryear, Landis Tipton never erected a tent in a field, trying to get a few naïve people here and there. He set up a foundation, and healed famously sick people. Every day, he proved himself worthy of our belief in him, and this only fueled my children’s insistence that I go to him myself. They actually tried to seek some kind of legal avenue to force me to try to extend my life, but there was no precedent for it, and I am in my right mind, so there was nothing they could do. The judge nearly laughed. The Tipton cure was so new back then. I have a terminal disease, and I accepted that years ago when I was first diagnosed. I made peace with God, and I trust in his plan. Again, I don’t mean to say than it’s not other people’s fates to be cured, but I’m not one of those people, and I don’t want him to waste his time with me when there are so many other sick people out there who actually want it. Goodbye.

The Advancement of Mateo Matic: March 22, 2380

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They chose to link the Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez up to their Cassidy cuffs, so it would jump to the future with them, rather than staying behind. This turned out to be the worst of two bad outcomes. Had it remained, it probably would have been destroyed while they were gone, but at least they wouldn’t have been there when it happened.

The Paz Protectorate Housing Department found them a secluded little canyon a few thousand kilometers from the main city. They parked the AOC there, and waited for their day to end. They knew they wanted to stay on this world for a little while, but they needed to learn more about it before they made any further decisions in that regard. For now, they were just going to relax. Most everyone was in bed, but Mateo was a bit restless when midnight central hit. The ship was equipped with inertial dampeners to prevent or lessen acceleration, as well as any jostling around that occurred during space travel. When entering an atmosphere, this became a little trickier, which is why they generally just usually just placed themselves in orbit, and then teleported down to the surface. Flying through the air didn’t make any sense when it wasn’t necessary. These safety protocols were shut off upon landing, however, because they shouldn’t have needed them. The crew felt it when the ship fell hard on the ground, tipped over, and crashed onto the ground on its side. Something about the terrain had changed drastically while they were gone, and the ship’s landing gear could not compensate for it.

Mateo woke up in engineering with a splitting headache. A few tools were strewn about him. A food cartridge was on his neck. The floor was the wall, and the walls were the floor and ceiling. He had been sitting at the central table during the crash, so he must have been sent tumbling down here. According to his cuff, he was out cold for the last fifteen minutes. He looked above him as the lights flickered to see that the antimatter reactor casing was cracked. Accelerator coolant was dripping onto his chest, and there was a sound that he didn’t recognize.

“Mateo! Mateo!” came a voice so muffled, he could barely make out that it was his name.

“Down here!” Mateo cried, but he didn’t think it was as loud as he would have wanted it.

The voice shouted something else, but this time he couldn’t decipher it at all.

“What!”

“Are you in engineering?” Ramses asked through the cuffs.

“Yes,” Mateo answered. “Report.”

“Angela and Olimpia are trapped in a grave chamber. Leona is...”

“Leona is what?”

“She’s unconscious. I can’t do a proper medical assessment, but her heart is beating, and she’s breathing.”

Mateo had to cough up some fluids before he could speak again. “What is this sound?” He lifted his cuff towards the propulsion drive so Ramses could hear the weird noise. “It sounds like something is dying.”

Ramses took a moment. “It is. That is the fluctuating magnetic containment field of at least one antimatter pod. It’s surviving on fumes. It’s not going to last long.”

“Yeah, that’s what I thought. You all have to get out of here. I can’t move, and I can see that the food synthesizer is blocking my way out anyway.”

“Mateo, there is nowhere to go. The resulting explosion will cover hundreds of kilometers in every direction at least. We’re all already dead. We should have asked for personal emergency teleporters. The city might be far enough away to be safe.”

“We have teleporters on our cuffs. Only one of us needs to get to a safe distance.”

“The cuffs can’t tele—”

“Listen to me,” Mateo interrupted. “Remember that portal you built in the far shower that leads to the Jameela Jamil?”

“Yes, but that was in another reality,” Ramses argued.

“It’s still open. Or...it might be. Take Leona, and try it. The rest of us can transport to your location if it works.”

“And if it doesn’t?”

“Then at least you will have tried!” Mateo reasoned.

“Understood.”

Mateo lay his head back down, trying to breathe deeply, but he was unable to. The freezing cold coolant was not making anything easy. He reached over, and pulled some piece of twisted metal on top of him for protection.

“Matty, it’s just a broken shower. Whatever you saw...whatever you experienced, it’s gone.”

That was their last hope. “We never found out what happens when you die in this reality. We never asked anybody.”

“They’re fighting a war,” Ramses said. “I would imagine that there’s nothing on the other side of the dark veil.”

“Same,” Mateo agreed. His cuff beeped, which was weird because members of his team didn’t need to reach out to communicate with him. They could just start talking. “Oh, hold on, I’m getting another call.” He answered the waiting caller. “Hello?”

“This is Xerian Oyana of the Cruise Ship Suadona, are you alive down there?”

“This is Mateo of the Stateless AOC, or whatever. Where are you?”

“In orbit around Paz. I just detected your ship as I was looking for clues after the attack.”

“Attack?”

“Attack.”

“Xerian, get me out of here.”

“Okay. Locking onto your signal. It might be kind of messy, but you’ll arrive intact.”

After a minute, Mateo found himself on the floor of the bridge, still covered in debris. “Ramses, Angela, Olimpia...transport to my location now.”

All four appeared above him. Leona was just waking up in Ramses’ arms. Xerian already had a satellite-like image of the surface of the planet up, zoomed in to high resolution. There they could see their precious, beautiful ship. It wasn’t long before the explosion burst out of it, and began to spread over the desert. They watched in fear as the blast inched closer and closer to the city, hoping that the two would never meet. They did. For a second, it seemed to be slowing down, but it must have been an optical illusion. They collectively gasped and frowned, saddened by the fact that they did this. They killed those innocent people. They should have tried to warn them.

Xerian looked around at their faces. “You know there’s no one down there, right?”

“What?”

“The city was evacuated. I told you it was attacked.”

“Attacked by who?” Leona questioned.

“Who do you think?”

“You’re still tracking them,” Mateo said. He was still just lying on the floor, too hurt to move.

“I’ve never been this close. They were just here a month ago.”

“The timing is too coincidental,” Ramses said as he was helping Mateo to a sitting position. “The planet has been rescuing people for who knows how long, and then we show up, and it’s suddenly found and destroyed.”

“It hasn’t been that long,” Xerian said, his tone implying that this wasn’t their fault. “This is just the latest in countless base worlds that the rescue network has used for the last few thousand years. They should have told you that it was more dangerous to stay here than to move on.”

“We didn’t know how dire the situation was,” Olimpia explained.

“Do you know how many died before completing the evacuation?” Angela asked.

“No way to know from up here, and that’s not my purpose. I’m just looking for the trail. How did you get here so fast without a lightyear engine?”

“That ship,” Ramses began, “was more powerful than we let on it. It couldn’t go as fast as all that, but it had faster-than-light capabilities. Seven hundred and seven times faster, to be exact. We have to return to the main sequence so we can get it back.”

“What do you mean, get it back?” Mateo asked.

“Yeah.” Leona didn’t know either.

Ramses narrowed his eyes. “Did I not tell you about the reset button?”

“The dowhatnow?”

“The reset button, the reset button.”

“Why don’t you say it a fourth time?” Leona mocked. “Maybe that’s all it takes to jog our memory. What the hell are you talking about?”

“It’s like...okay, some of you may not get this, but ancient computers had this thing called a system restore point? Basically, if you had a problem with your machine, you could revert it to an earlier state, which would wipe out everything that had been done to it in the meantime, allowing you to start over from there.”

“Okay,” Leona said, nodding. “So you left one of these resets in the main sequence, which can create a whole copy of our ship?”

“Yes, next to the entrance portal for the Power Vacuum. The reset won’t send us back in time, it will just reconstitute the ship into the form it was in when I last set up a restore point.”

“Why didn’t you set up one more recently?” Olimpia suggested.

“It resets the ship to as it was at a given point in time, including everything that was inside of it in that moment.” He looked around to see if they understood by now. “Including people? We haven’t left the ship since we ended up in this reality, at least not all of us at once.”

“Yeah, we did, we were in Salufi’s office,” Angela argued.

“Right, inside of the evil matrioshka brain. I didn’t think we would ever want to go back there. I have to tether the reset to a spatial constant of some kind.”

“Wait,” Leona said, starting to pace. “Did you not set up a reset point there, because you were worried about the danger? Or do you just not want to use that reset point now, because of how dangerous we know it is?”

“I don’t understand where you’re going with this,” Ramses admitted.

“Is there a reset point on the SWD that we could theoretically use?”

“Yes, I programmed it to happen after every time the ship is emptied. But what does it matter? We can’t go there. The safest recovery point is by that brown dwarf.”

“Since when have we only looked for the safest path?” Leona questioned.

“All of us almost just died,” Ramses contended. “Mateo’s still hurt, you may have a concussion.”

“Your point?” she pressed.

“I can’t demand that we not go back to that thing, but I also can’t endorse it.”

Leona looked over to Xerian. “You need to find them, right? That is your mission, your...crusade?”

“It is,” Xerian confirmed.

“We can tell you exactly where it is, and exactly when it’s there,” Leona promised. “We can show you the way. Ramses will restore our ship. Once it’s complete, we’ll teleport to one of the extra cuffs, and drop a pin for you.”

“A pin?” Xerian asked.

“We’ll send you coordinates,” Olimpia translated.

“We don’t even know what he’s trying to do with the SWD,” Mateo said, managing to stand up only long enough to find a chair, and sit back down. “Do you have a bomb that can destroy the damn thing? Are you trying to rescue your long lost love? Is this a suicide mission? We have to know that we can escape again before deciding whether any of this makes any sense.”

Xerian seemed scared to answer the question. Perhaps it was indeed a suicide mission. He walked over to the other side of the control console, and started fiddling with the switches. They didn’t seem to be doing anything, maybe just flipping lights on and off throughout the vessel. They waited patiently for him to respond. “It’s mine.”

“What’s yours?” Mateo asked.

“The brain, the SWD; it’s mine, I own it.”

“I’m sorry?” Leona prompted.

Xerian took a breath. “I am one of the original members of the Fifth Division. I won’t get into how our vision for the future of the galaxy supercluster came to be, or how we realized it—it doesn’t matter now. The point is that I broke away from them, as did a few others who didn’t agree with the direction we were taking. But we have a weird sort of hierarchical structure, and consolidation of power. That damn thing is mine, and I have the right to do with it what I choose, but I have to be on it to reclaim that ownership from the one who stole it from me. I intend to shutter the entire fugitive hunting program, and hopefully end the war, but I have to get to it first. It is the only thing that would have any hope of uniting the other detachments, and putting a stop to the Denseterium.”

“What exactly is this Denseterium?” Leona asked. “That is not a word where we’re from.”

Xerian pulled up a holographic image of the stellar blob that they saw when they first came to this reality. “The New Hyperdense Milky Way Galaxy. An obviously dense collection of stars that are within one light year of each other, resulting in the most massive celestial body in the universe. They’re using thrusters to move every star system closer together, so they can interlink them, and transport them anywhere they want all at once using the largest light year engine ever. If they finish it, no one is safe.”

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Extremus: Year 30

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This is a new timeline. Olindse didn’t change her own past, but she changed the future when she skipped over however long it was, and came here. Thatch asks what’s going on, but she ignores his questions. She steps out of the extraction room, and looks at the keypad, because it’s the closest thing with accurate temporal data. “It’s February 26, 2299,” she says.

“Why?” Thatch asks.

“We were about to get caught. Future!Me showed up to save me. Now she’s gone, and I’m here, and I’ve been missing for the last eight months.”

“Oh boy,” he says. “We’re going to have to come up with a good lie.”

“Not we, me. You have to go back home.”

“You’re asking me to go back to my death.”

“You’re gonna die anyway...in seven years, and three months. That happens whether it’s in 2294, or 2306. It’s up to you whether you want to do it in hock, or if you’re going to have one last nice conversation with Halan Yenant before your nurse turns off your life support. Go back and do some good, or stay here and ruin everything.”

He frowns. “Do he and I really have a nice conversation?”

“The best,” she says, not really knowing exactly what went down that day. “The way he tells it, he wishes you two had had more like it.”

“Well...one is better than nothing, I guess.” He nods gracefully. “Do it.”

Olindse sends the only person on this vessel who understood what it was like to be a Vice Admiral whose advice nobody cares about back to the past. Alone again, she returns to her stateroom to take a shower. She’ll have to explain her absence eventually, but there’s no reason she can’t be well-rested and clean when that happens. When she wakes up from her nap, she forces herself to get dressed, and go out to face the music. She thinks she’s come up with a pretty decent lie. The only logical possibility is that Yitro secretly showed up and recruited her for the mission, and for whatever reason, deposited her back on the Extremus months later. Once the time shuttle finally does return, and Yitro is actually back to dispute the lie, things could get complicated, but she’ll burn that bridge when she comes to it.

It’s pretty late, so Captain Leithe probably retired to her own stateroom for the night. Even so, Olindse takes a quick look on the bridge to make sure, then she heads over to get this over with.

The Captain commands the computer to open her door. “Vice Admiral, hello. What can I do for you?”

“I would like to explain.”

“Explain what?”

“My absence.”

“You were gone?”

“What?”

“Olindse, if you need a break to go to the simulator, or the park, that’s fine, you don’t need to ask for permission, or apologize. I’ll find you if I need you.”

“You didn’t notice that I was gone?”

“Well. I’m a little busy.”

“Yeah, but...”

“Seriously,” Kaiora says, “you served your time as captain. Sure, it wasn’t a full shift, but you still deserve to be retired. You experienced the same rigorous coursework the rest of us did, and you were in charge during some of the most insane and stressful years this ship has seen. Just have fun and relax. Don’t feel bad about it.”

Olindse can’t help but grimace. Wow. Just...wow. “Um. ‘Kay.”

Kaiora nods. “So, I’m gonna work on my Quantum Colony planet for a little bit and then head to bed. You’re welcome to join, if you want...on the game, not...the bed.”

“That’s all right, Captain,” Olindse replies. “I’ll see you later.”

“For sure.”

Olindse steps away from the door to prompt it to close, and begins to hyperventilate. She teleports herself back to her stateroom so she can have her panic attack in peace. Eight months. Eight whole fucking months. She was gone for all that time, and no one noticed! How is that even possible? Do they really think that little of her? Is she really that expendable? All that bullshit Kaiora just tried to feed her about deserving to retire because of her prior work was just a lie. If she really felt that way, she would have realized that she hadn’t seen Olindse for the last eight goddamn months!

Olindse paces the room, trying to let go of her anger, but it won’t leave her alone. No, this will not do. Great, she doesn’t have to explain her absence, but that also means she can’t confide in anyone about this. She has to keep it to herself completely, and bottling up her emotions has never served her well. Resolved to get past this, she activates her teleporter again.

The journey to the Extremus planet will ultimately take 216 years. In that time, the population could grow as much as thirteen times its original complement. Until then, there are tens of thousands of unoccupied cabins that won’t see a resident move in for a long time. Some may never be inhabited, as the engineers obviously constructed more than they thought they would need to accommodate the full breadth of the mission. While spreading out is fine, there is a limit to where civilians are allowed to live. When children move away from home, they can put some distance between them and their parents to exercise some independence, but they can’t go all the way to the stern. Many sections are closed off for use, and will remain that way until such time that they are needed. One block of cabins is the furthest from anybody, and is being used for rage rooms.

Virtual reality is generally considered to be indistinguishable from base reality, but people still like being where physical laws are immutable, and where most of their actions cannot be undone. It’s possible to design a simulation where users can destroy objects without fear of consequences, and then logoff, and go about their day. That program probably does exist somewhere on the servers. People don’t really want that, though; not for this. They want to know that the things they’re destroying are real, and that there’s a chance that something they do in one of these rooms could potentially lead to someone having to go to the infirmary. It’s dangerous, and that’s what makes it so therapeutic. The bylaws did not originally account for this section to exist, so for now, it’s not illegal. For the most part, the government and crew turn a blind eye to it, but they could change their minds later, especially as the administration changes hands.

Olindse walks up to the counter, and demands an arsenal of blunt instruments, such as bats, golf clubs, and metal pipes.

“Okay, you’ll need some protective gear too,” the clerk says.

“No,” Olindse insists.

“I’m afraid it’s policy.”

“Do you know who I am?”

“Of course, Vice Admiral.”

“Then you know that I can have this place shut down by this time tomorrow. So go over there, grab me some instruments, and stay the hell out of my business.”

He hesitates to answer, but not too long. “As you wish, Vice Admiral.” He hands her the duffel bag.

“Thanks,” she says as she’s taking it from him. “Oh, and I was never here.”

“Of course, sir.”

Olindse walks down to her assigned room, and walks in. It’s full of absolutely ancient technology—some from Earth, and some from Ansutah before the evacuation. Computers, clocks, old media, objects so old that Olindse doesn’t even know what they were used for. There’s a piece of drywall leaning against the real wall, along with an uninstalled glass window. Bottles, cans, pots, and pans. Clothes to rip, and paper to shred. She looks the room over to see what catches her fancy. All of it. Every last object here is about to meet its end. When she’s done, nothing will be even moderately recognizable. She just has to decide where to start. “This’ll do.”

The door opens, and the lights come on. Olindse wakes up abruptly, covered in cuts, and feeling sick. She must have raged herself to sleep.

Captain Kaiora Leithe walks in and offers a hand. “What are you doing here, Admiral?”

“I don’t have to answer that,” Olindse contends.

“Can you at least let me help you up?”

Olindse squints at the hand. She reaches up as if to accept it, but slaps it away instead. “Go to the devil.”

“Are you drunk?”

“I think I found a bottle of something with alcohol in it last night. I don’t know why it’s illegal, I feel so good right now.” She throws up on her own chest.

Kaiora picks a bottle up from the floor. “Damn, Olindse, this liquor stuff is 277 years old. It was poisonous when they made it, and it’s even more poisonous now. It’s probably from the history museum.” She tries to take control of Olindse’s teleporter.

“What are you doing?” Olindse complains, fighting back.

“You need to go to the infirmary. I don’t know what’s gotten you so upset, but you’re gonna die if you don’t receive proper medical treatment.”

Olindse makes one last pull away from the Captain. “And who will care?”

“I will.”

“I was dead for eight months and you didn’t even notice.”

“What are you talking about?”

“Exactly.”

Kaiora looks away, and accesses her brain’s memory archives. “I probably haven’t seen you in eight months. Were you gone that whole time?”

Olindse shoves a finger in Kaiora’s face. “Bingpot!”

“Oh my God. What happened to you? Were you taken?”

“I think we’ve established that you don’t give a flailing fuck.”

“We’ll talk when you’re sober.” Kaiora remembers, as Captain, she has the ability to transport anyone she wants to anywhere she wants, without their permission, and using her own teleporter. She sends them both to Dr. Holmes.

Since alcohol is illegal and rare, alcohol poisoning is not something that happens on the ship very often. It does happen occasionally, and the medical team believes they encounter nearly every single time someone tries to drink, because the moron doesn’t usually have any experience, so the consequences are not something they can sleep off on their own. Admiral Thatch was perhaps the only exception. Earth once made a serious effort to develop a hangover cure to relieve drinkers from some of the harmful side effects of intoxication, but this was around the time that a state of abstinence was sweeping the world due to its rejection by younger generations. Legislatures quietly made the medical treatment itself illegal, so as to not encourage anyone to regress. A different administration may have handled things differently, but research halted, and the world moved towards the recreational drug-free condition it’s in today. The research was picked up again several decades later, and the dream was ultimately realized. By then, there weren’t many people around to need it, but it did come up sometimes when alcohol was forced upon a victim as a weapon, or a form of torture. Dr. Holmes keeps a stash of the stuff on hand.

She injects Olindse with the treatment, causing her to begin to fall asleep within seconds.

“How long will this take?” Kaiora questions.

“A few hours.” Dr. Holmes pulls Olindse to her side, and places a body pillow against her back. “If she were simply drunk, it would be quicker, but she’s on the verge of death, drinking something that old. You could not have brought her in too soon.”

“Call me when she’s awake,” Kaiora orders. “I’m going to retrace her steps.” Privacy is important on Extremus, but so is security. The ship logs the movements of everyone on board. It erases most people’s histories after a month, but VIPs are kept indefinitely for safety reasons. They’re harder to access, though, even for the Captain. She’ll have to file a formal request with current Head of Security, Ramiel Krupin.

“Are you sure about this, sir?” Ramiel asks. “I mean, an Admiral. That’s...”

“She disappeared for eight months, I need to know where she was.”

“Can’t you just ask her?”

“She’s sick. She’s...lost credibility.”

“All due respect, sir, that sounds like a contrivance. I’m going to need you to spell it out for me.” He hands her a tablet. “And I’m going to need you to do it in writing.”

“This is a matter of ship security. I need that information.”

“You need to have a good reason, or you’re not getting it.”

Captain is the highest rank on the ship, even against admirals, even against the civilian government. If anyone is in a position to declare this to suddenly become a dictatorship, it would be Kaiora Leithe. No one else comes close to having the power to pull that off, not even First Chair. She wouldn’t do it obviously, and neither will any future captain, or they would never be selected in the first place. That’s why Halan Yenant’s decision to alter course was such a terrible crime, because he abused his power to do it. Still, even with all this clout, there are precisely two ranks on this ship with the power to overrule anything a captain says. One of them is the Chief Medical Officer, and the other is Head of Security. “Fine. I’ll investigate this myself.” She storms out.

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Microstory 1815: No Contact

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My people have always been aware that the world is larger than just our one little island. We even have a history of trading with some of our neighbors. Many generations ago, however, we decided that we didn’t need anything from anyone else anymore. Our former trade partners accepted this, and moved on, but then my ancestors discovered that there were others who were less used to being told no. As our oral history tells it, one of the first major interactions we had was with an army of men who wanted to take everything that we had. They wore clothing made of rocks, and threw fire at my ancestors. They must have assumed that they were superior warriors. But this is our home; we will always defend it, and we will always be better. The survivors attempted to retreat, but my ancestors only let one of them go so he could warn all others to stay away. Apparently, some people did not get the message, so a few more attempts were made to conquer us. We lost a lot of lives to the wars, but we won every time. After that, a small group of men and women, who appeared to be a family, showed up on our shores. They had books in their hands, and they drew in the sand, and they pointed to the sky. We speak our own special language, so communication would have been rather difficult for them. After much time, the ancestors realized that these strangers were trying to convey the meaning of God. They showed images, and used other symbology, which my people did not recognize, so I believe that they had a very different idea of who God actually was, and what she could do for the world. They too left the island, but much more peaceably, for we are a reasonable people, and we recognize surrender.

The first interaction I remember was when I was only a small boy. I remember them being less hostile than the fighters, but less peaceful than the storytellers. They were trying to take something from us too, but they obviously preferred us to give it to them without bloodshed. I was very young, I don’t know exactly what the white men wanted. They seemed to think that there was something special about our land. We always considered it sacred, but that was no business of theirs. I think they eventually got the message...somehow. My mother led the battle that fought them off. There was less death than in past conquests. No one died on our side, and it was clear that some of the invaders didn’t want to fight at all. They actively tried to pull the more aggressive of their group away, and we let them. We are less violent than we once were. A few suns later, a single woman arrived on the shore. I remember thinking she was pretty, but we still couldn’t tell what she was saying. By her hand gestures, my father believes that she was attempting to apologize for the recent invasion. We let her go, hoping that she understood that it could not happen again, or we would kill without question. One morning many seasons later, after a storm, a girl I hoped to one day marry shouted from the shore. We ran down to find her hovering over a white man who was lying on his back. My mother tried to spear him, but my friend and I stopped her. This man was cold and blue. Pieces of wood and other things had washed up alongside him. It was evident that he did not come on purpose. We begged them not to kill him, and they eventually agreed. We were lucky. A few months later—after the man had given up hope on rescue—my wife-to-be fell into a deadly fever. He gave her some of his medicine, which he did not seem to think was a big deal. Today I’ve learned that she will outlive me.

Microstory 1814: Walking on Water

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My parents owned a ship-building company—specifically, barges—so I’ve been around the ocean my entire life. I know how to row, sail, tie knots; everything that’s associated with ships and boats. It pretty much consumed my being. It wasn’t until I was in my twenties that I started to get into hiking. I was kind of sick of the water, so I wanted to do something land-based, and that was the best I could come up with. I loved it, so I started doing it more and more. Meanwhile, my parents were trying to put themselves on the map by constructing the longest barge in the world. At 500 meters, it surpassed all others by a great deal, and they were proud of themselves for it, even if there weren’t many uses for the darn things. They were also faster than most ships of the day. With no cargo, they could reach a cruising speed of nine knots, which was pretty impressive. Oh, and they could move on their own, so that was cool. The company spent most of its money on these three giants, and they weren’t shaping up to give us much return on the investment. They needed to show the world what they were capable of. They needed to market themselves. They needed a big show. So I came up with a plan. It was ridiculous and silly, but if I could just get people to hear about the company, it would have been worth it. I decided to try to walk from my home country of Russia to the Nation of Alaska. Crazy, I know, but with these barges under my feet, I figured that there was no reason I couldn’t get this done. It’s good that there were three of them, because I don’t know if it would have worked with just two. They could be attached to one another back to front, allowing travel between them. They weren’t meant to move across the water like this, but they could stay together just fine for long enough to allow me to step from one to the next. Again, we were all well aware of how crazy the plan was, but it worked.

After I stepped onto the second barge, the first one would be detached, and propelled past the next two. By the time I reached the end of the third barge, the first one was attached in front of it, and the second one was already on its way to getting in front of that one. It took a lot of fuel to make this happen. The idea was for me to walk all the way from the Easternmost tip of Russia to the Westernmost tip of Alaska by foot. If the barges moved  significantly forwards, it would have defeated the purpose. The drivers had to be really good at not letting them drift too much, and keeping the undertaking as authentic as possible. In total, I walked over 83 kilometers. I probably walked farther than that actually, because the rule was for the drivers to err on the side of Russia, meaning that if the ships drifted at all, they would have to compensate, and usually that meant they were overcompensating. The distance itself was obviously not that big of a deal. Fifty miles is a relatively easy trek for even an only moderately experienced hiker. Still, the barges weren’t the most comfortable surfaces to walk on, and it was pretty boring most of the time. Even so, I’m proud of myself for having accomplished it. The barges themselves didn’t get much use after that, since they were still so absurd, but the publicity stunt worked. I mean, just hearing about it put my parents’ ship-building company in people’s minds, and when they were in need of a ship, they thought of us before all others. The company thrived after that, and they were able to sell it off for a pretty penny. They knew that I didn’t want to inherit it from them, but I still got a decent cut of the sale, because they considered me so instrumental in its value.

Microstory 1813: Niche Market

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I don’t know why my parents chose to live in a neighborhood with so many old people, but it inspired a business opportunity that taught me the skills that I would need later in life. We were rich, so that wasn’t a problem, but I wanted to make my own money without their help, and I didn’t want to do that just by flipping burgers at a fast food restaurant. Not that there’s anything wrong with that, but growing up with my lifestyle, it would have looked like I was just trying to rebel. I also needed to do something interesting, so I could put it on my college application. When I said we were rich, I didn’t mean that we were one of the families that ruled the world. My dad couldn’t just write a check to an Ivy League school, and get me into any program. I still had to prove myself, and my academic record was average to slightly above average. One day, I was watering the flowers in my mother’s front garden when I noticed the old lady next door receiving a pizza delivery for the third time this week. She didn’t seem like the type to like that kind of food; not that much anyway. I hadn’t seen any teenagers come and go, so it just looked really weird. I thought about asking her about it, but that could be embarrassing for her, so I just tried to put it out of my mind. A few days later, the delivery boy was back, so I decided to confront him about it. He told me that he didn’t really know, but she made it sound like she couldn’t get her own food because of her mobility issues. When she was having trouble with her hips, she just ordered in, and since she didn’t like Chinese food, pizza was the only choice. The only choice? That was a travesty. Someone ought to do something about that, I figured. I was technically someone.

I had just turned sixteen, and had my own car. I could have easily been a delivery boy, but working for one store would not have solved the problem that this woman was facing. So instead of going to the restaurants, I went straight to the people in the community. With help, I compiled a list of the oldest and least mobile people in my neighborhood. Then I just knocked on their doors, and pitched them my business plan. It was simple. When they needed food—and they didn’t want pizza or Chinese—they could call me with their order. I would drive to the restaurant myself, and bring it back to them. I charged them fifty cents for the service, which was a lot more than the pizza joints were charging for it in 1964, but I was providing them an unprecedented convenience. I could travel to any place in a twenty-mile radius that had a pick-up option. I even later expanded my partner list by convincing sitdown restaurants to make an exception for me. I mostly worked by myself, but my older sister helped me out when her school was on break. If any of this sounds familiar, that’s because this sort of thing happens all the time now. There are a handful of companies that provide the same thing with an application on your phone. It’s so common now, it’s hard to believe that it ever wasn’t. I laugh when people ask me whether I think all those companies stole my idea. No, I wouldn’t say so. I was in such a niche market, and before all that technology. You can’t really say they were much alike. I never would have thought to grow that large. It was just about making a little cash, and giving me an edge for college applications. I shuttered my small business when that actually came to fruition, but that experience gave me insight that my business school classmates didn’t have. I did well, and learned everything I needed to know to start my nationwide flower delivery service.

Microstory 1812: Civic Duty

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I was alive for the turn of the 20th century, but I obviously don’t remember it. I was only a few months old at the time, but I still get people asking me what the 19th century was like. I suppose it wasn’t much different than the early 1900s. If there’s one thing I’ve learned in my 122 years on this Earth, it’s that things don’t change dramatically. They’re drastic. It’s not like January 1, 1980 hit, and everyone who was listening to disco at the time turned it off all at once. Life is a journey, and it’s hard to see the path while you’re on it. Living all these years, I can see my pattern; where I’ve been, and whether I made the right choices. I made a lot of mistakes, and I die with a lot of regrets. We didn’t have much money growing up, but my parents saved so they could send me and my two sisters to college. They wanted us to get ourselves educated, so that we could choose whether we wanted to work or not. Some women didn’t have a choice back then. If you didn’t continue school, you had to find a man to take care of you. Well, those weren’t the only two options, but they were the only two society told you about. I was the middle child. My younger sister didn’t go, and married the widower who lived a few streets down. Our parents were tight-lipped about our financial situation, so it wasn’t until decades later during a fight when my sister let it slip that she actually did want to go, but I had taken her tuition for myself. I was smart enough to get accepted into a really good school, but unfortunately, it cost a bit more than my parents could afford. Their future son-in-law helped make up some of the difference for me, but that left nothing for my poor baby sister, who ended up being—let’s face it—the prize for his generosity. Reportedly, he would have been willing to shoulder the burden of her higher education too, but I suspect that he strongly discouraged it. He was an old man, and she was a pretty seventeen-year-old trophy. He wanted her to be dependent on him.

As far as I could tell, he wasn’t abusive, even for the time period, which saw more blatant inequality than 2021. And when he died, she inherited all of his money, so maybe she was the one with the last laugh. I’m certainly not laughing. I went on to find my own problems. I met a nice girl in college. By then, homosexuality was all right on principle, but there was this unfair unwritten rule that you didn’t go down that path unless you were infertile, or had already given the country at least two more children. You see, we had just suffered a massive population decline from a nasty pandemic, and a lot of propaganda came out, urging people to do their part by having as many children as possible. Gay people weren’t deviants anymore, but they weren’t productive. I could have my girl on the side, but I was expected to find a man, so we could do our civic duties together. It was a war, really, against a neighboring country. Both were vying for global domination, but instead of amassing weapons, or developing technology, they figured that growth in all sectors meant prosperity. The man I married ended up not being able to have children, which of course, defeated the whole purpose. Still, neither he, nor the love of my life, were willing to share, so we all lost. Divorce was frowned upon back then, even when it could help the population problem. I wasn’t miserable my whole life, though. He wasn’t nearly as old as my brother-in-law, but he died long before me, and I was free to be myself. By that point, the population was fine, but my love had moved on without me. So I die here today, as alone as I always have been.

Microstory 1811: Overwhelming Emotion

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I never wanted to have children until I became pregnant, and my entire outlook suddenly changed. I heard stories of people like that, and things seem to always change once they lay eyes on their child. It was seeing those two pink lines that really got me. The pregnancy test didn’t look anything like a baby, of course—and of course, I always knew that pregnancy was, like...a thing—I just didn’t think it would happen to me. It became real in that moment, and I fell in love with this little person growing inside of me who I wouldn’t be able to meet for the next nine months. What I didn’t know back then was that she and I would actually never meet. I was scared to tell my husband the news. We weren’t stupid; we got married knowing each other’s feelings on the matter. We discussed a lot of things about the future before we agreed to set a date. Both of our families and friends were so upset when we told them about the wedding, but didn’t have a cutesy story to go along with it. He didn’t ask me at a sports competition, or hide a ring in my dessert. He didn’t even get down on one knee. We were responsible and thoughtful about this decision, and I honestly can’t think of anything more romantic. There is no doubt in my mind that, had I survived, we would have grown old together. I didn’t wait a really long time to tell him about the baby, like they do on TV. That’s like asking for people to find out some other way while hilarity ensues. I sat him down next to me on the couch, took a deep breath, and just said the words. I remember him staring into my eyes, darting his own back and forth, looking for the truth written across my face. He was shocked, and worried, and then his face changed the same way I felt mine change when I found out myself. He felt overwhelmed by his emotions, but one thing was for certain, it all added up to joy. He was excited. We had both changed our minds.

Our family and friends were so excited for us as well when we started spreading the news a few months later. It was like they had forgotten what we had put them through with the whole marriage proposal thing. These reactions started to change when they learned how we were handling the process. No baby shower, no gifts, no opinions about how I should give birth, or who I should choose as my doula. We especially didn’t have a gender reveal party. We let the technician tell us what the sex would be at birth, but we weren’t going to assign a gender to an individual without their say-so. We would call her a she for the first several years of her life until such time that she figured out who she really was. My mother was not happy about this. She wanted to have a party, and she wanted to have another party where people gave us things that were either pink or blue. My husband and I painted the nursery with monster trucks, sports balls, and volcanoes just to piss her off. Don’t worry, we painted over it with a nice neutral green afterwards. As you might have guessed, we still got a lot of gifts, even though we didn’t have a registry. We didn’t need charity regardless, but I kind of always liked the idea of risking getting two of the same item. That’s how they did it in the olden days, and ya know what, people survived the emotional trauma of knowing that their particular gift was returned to the store. I will never know what gender my child would ultimately choose, or what toys she would end up liking the most. I’ll never know how great a father my husband is, or how good a mother I could be. I know one thing, I’m enormously grateful that I chose to give birth in a hospital. Because if I hadn’t, my child probably would have died too.