Ever since I was a child, I was really good at detecting what other people
were doing wrong, and I had absolutely no trouble informing them of this at
every opportunity. I perhaps developed a little more tact as I grew up, but
not a whole lot. I was still a master at pissing people off, and pushing
them away. It’s just...like, what’s the point of living your life if you’re
not going to improve, ya know? Like when women lie about their age. They go
the wrong way with it. I can see what you look like; giving me a surprising
number is not going to change that. If you say that you’re 20 years old, but
you’re 30, and you look 30, then not only am I not impressed, but I’m
probably going to assume that you smoke, or something. Now, if you say that
you’re 40, and you’re 30, and you look 30, then I’m going to assume you take
good care of yourself. The idea is to appear younger, not to make everyone
just think you’re younger. Some people were really appreciative of my
advice. Just kidding, they always hated it, every single time. On the night
I planned on proposing to my girlfriend, we went out to see a musical
together. I actually like musicals, and I’m willing to suspend my disbelief
that these people would suddenly break into choreographed song. That’s the
medium, and I’m fine with it. My problem had to do with the particular show
we saw. It was great on the whole, but one lyric sort of ruined the whole
thing for me. One of the characters sang, not counting the homeless, how
many tickets weren’t comped. Well, unless he’s suggesting that regular
people were given free tickets, and homeless people had to pay, this line
doesn’t make any sense. It doesn’t matter whether you include the homeless
people in the math, or not, the number of people whose tickets weren’t
comped should not change. Needless to say, she broke up with me, and I had
to take the ring back to the store for a refund. The people who worked there
all gave me this sad look. But I decided that if she wasn’t happy with my
logic, she couldn’t be happy with me at all, so it actually worked out.
Anyway, her father was my boss at the time, and he didn’t like the way I
treated her. I think she made some stuff up to make me look even worse than
I was. He fired me, and I had to go on the hunt for something new. My
friends all suggested that I translate my ability to see and point out flaws
into something productive, like maybe being a film critic. I chose to be a
house inspector, because the pay was better, and the work was steadier. I
never really enjoyed it. I had a boss, and she pretty much left me alone, so
I felt like an entrepreneur, but the work was still boring and monotonous. I
kept thinking that there would be someone. Someone had to like what I had to
say. But it never happened. Every first date was bad. Every party was
awkward. I finally gave up, and just figured there was nothing I could do
about it. Therapist after therapist tried to turn me into a better person,
but they all failed. Well, that’s unfair. I’m the one who failed, and I
would be a huge hypocrite if I wasn’t willing to admit that about myself. In
the end, it’s probably for the best, anyone hypothetically interested in
someone like me probably just didn’t understand what they were getting into,
and it would eventually turn sour anyway. I wouldn’t want to subject someone
to that. I made lots of money because I didn’t have any responsibilities,
and I was destined to die with it, because I didn’t have any heirs. Like
many in my position—or even outside of it—I decided to donate my savings to
charity. Hopefully someone who actually needs it can get some use out of it.
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