Monday, December 7, 2020

Microstory 1511: A Child Undone

I lost my child today
When the sands of time flew back up the hourglass
I was left with nothing
Many found new hope
They could correct the mistakes of their future
But I was not so lucky
He has not yet been conceived
And I understand causality; he never will
Even if I attempted to recreate the scenario
I could never make him again
It could never be him
His creation was undone, and cannot be redone
Damn whomever did this to us
Damn whomever forced us back in time
Damn the science that made it possible
And damn those who benefited from it
I know it’s not their fault
But I also cannot forgive them
Time is meant to move in one direction
I would have never thought to call the reverse blasphemy
But I, more than most, can see the damage it has done
People died, caught off guard by the temporal shift
Others were destined to die, but who knows now?
But I am here, lost and alone
At least the ones who died in the catastrophe still had a chance
At least the ones who would have died can try to change it
I wish to change nothing
I wish to go back to how it was
I wish for my child

Sunday, December 6, 2020

The Advancement of Mateo Matic: Thursday, July 17, 2132

All prisons and jail centers in The Parallel were quantum locked by design. This prevented someone from simply teleporting out of a holding area, or teleporting in to break someone else out. There wasn’t a whole hell of a lot of crime in this reality, but there was enough to justify their existence. This was the only way to prevent Young!Jupiter Fury from transitioning back to the main sequence, which was something very few people were capable of doing on their own, so they never needed something like this until now. Still, they didn’t want Young!Jupiter to be angry and nasty once they returned a year later, so the Parallel natives cleared out an entire jail for him, and spruced it up, so he would have the run of the place. He could go wherever he wanted within the facility, and even take virtual tours of the rest of the galaxy, but he couldn’t physically leave.
Depending on the perspective, Jupiter was fortunately or unfortunately a time traveler with a penchant for patience. To him, spending a year in a parallel reality was no big deal, and alone wasn’t enough to stop him from completing his goals later. He was an excellent prisoner, who didn’t cause problems, or show any signs of retaliation. But that was only because he didn’t think it mattered much. Once they freed him—and they would eventually have to do that—he could always go back in time and continue with what he was planning. In the original timeline, he helped Keanu and Tauno maintain control over Easter Island after they abducted Paige Turner. He made quantum replications of himself and his friends, so Paige’s rescuers were severely outnumbered. It didn’t work, and they lost anyway, but Future!Jupiter wanted to change his involvement, and that was not going to be easy. Convincing someone to become a better person was a tall order, and Jupiter carried a lot of loyalty to his fellow Springfield Nine. Again, the only way to for sure stop him from nearly killing Paige would be to kill him first, because time travel was a thing.
“We’re not seriously considering that,” Mateo needed to clarify.
“No, I just want to make sure we both understand what we’re up against. It’s the only certain solution, and even it’s not perfect, because we don’t have the hundemarke. Anything short of murder will be damn near impossible. That’s not to say we should do it, but I’m trying to illustrate the difficulty level.  I know how you see me now, and I didn’t wanna bring it up, because of that, but it needed to be said.”
“How do I see you now?”
“I’m a killer, Mateo.”
He made a quizzical face, and waited a moment. “You killed one person. I’ve killed more than that.”
“Yes,” Leona acknowledged, “but those people are still alive, because of Pryce’s afterlife simulation. You’ve actually never killed a single person. I have.”
He took another beat. “Do you remember when Lincoln and I met The Superintendent? I mean, of course you don’t, because you were taken out of the timeline. But I told you about it, and I told you how he sent me to other universes to assassinate alternate versions of Adolf Hitler.”
“Yeah, I remember.”
“Pryce’s simulation does not extend that far. I killed those men, and as far as we know, for them, dead is dead is dead is dead.”
“Wull, yeah, but that’s still Hitler.”
“And Erlendr is still a rapist. I’m not saying we start going around Sweet Viciousing people to an R-rated degree, but I’m not going to lose any sleep over the true death of Erlendr Preston. And you shouldn’t either.”
“I’m not a good person, Mateo. Maybe I never was.”
He scoffed. “Who is? I’m certainly not. If you’re waiting for me to agree with you, it ain’t gon’ happen. I’m sorry to say that you just need to get over this. You saved Angela, who deserves to live a billion times more than he did, and that’s not nothin’.”
“I don’t know that I saved Angela,” Leona argued. “I created a distraction, so Jeremy could climb out of my magic bag and save Angela, but I never found out if it worked, because I had to maintain my distance, and keep my mouth shut about it.”
“Let’s assume your plan worked, and move on from there, okay? Speaking of plans, we need to figure out what to do about Young!Jupiter. I don’t know how to talk to him. I feel like I’ve turned enough bad guys good that my luck’s gotta be runnin’ out. At some point I have to come across someone who can’t be saved.”
“But he can, and we know that he can, because we’ve seen him in the future. I don’t know how many timelines there are, and whether Future!Jupiter put us on this mission, because he already experienced it when he was younger, but he proves that it’s possible. We have to appeal to his better angels, or something, or other.”
He couldn’t help but laugh. “Or something, or other. Sounds easy.”
“Just speak from the heart,” Leona suggested. “That always seems to work for you. I wouldn’t recommend trying to write a speech, or practicing what you wanna say.”
“I still don’t think I can do it.”
“Well, I can’t. I’m not in a great emotional state right now,” she reminded him.
He paused yet again. “Perhaps that’s exactly why you should be the one. I don’t have anything in my heart right now.”
She paused as well. “If this doesn’t work, there’s probably nothing we can do.”
“I have faith in you, love.”
“You get the next one.”
“Sure thing.”
They discussed it a little more, and then Leona went off to formulate a little plan, but she didn’t spend too much time on it. They walked into the room together once they were ready, but she would still be doing most, if not all, of the talking. Jupiter was waiting for them. He knew what day it was, and what they were going to try to do. He seemed open to listening, but maybe not quite so open to changing his mind.
Leona removed a digital photo card from her pocket. It had at least one picture of everyone she cared about on it. She found one of Paige when she was still just a teenager. “You know who this is?”
“That’s Paige Turner.”
“Do you think she deserves to be killed?”
“I’m not going to kill anybody.”
“Your friends are going to try. I was there. They failed, but only because we stopped them. They were fully prepared to do it, and you helped.”
“They have their reasons. And besides she’s not that young anymore. You’re making an emotional plea with an outdated photo, but that’s just Young!Paige, and no one is going to hurt Young!Paige.”
“That’s bullshit. She’s been fighting the Springfield Nine since she was a kid. You had no qualms about it back then. She told me about all the times she almost died because of you and your buddies. Maybe you’re just not a great person.”
Mateo wanted to interrupt, but knew that would undermine whatever it was his wife was doing.
“What do you want from me, Leona? A few hail marys? Hail Mary, full of grace, may I sit upon your face?”
“That. Is a very obscure reference. You think you’re the devil?”
“Well, I’m not the other guy.”
Leona went back to her photo card, and found one of her mother, Carol. “Do you know who this one is?”
“Yeah, that’s your mom. I ain’t got no beef with her.”
“Paige killed her, you know that? She brought a pathogen back from the future, my mom tried to help her, and she died for it.”
“I am aware of the story. Are you gonna run through all the bad things my friends did? We’ll be here all day, and you’re not gonna say anything I don’t already know.”
“What you may not know is that Carol lived. We changed the past, using the power of the Parallel.”
“I think you’re severely overestimating how much I give a shit. It’s just Carol Gelen.”
“The Parallel,” Leona began, “is yours. When I said that we changed the past, I’m including you. You saved her. You didn’t have to.”
“Well, I’ll be sure to change it back when I get to that moment, just to piss you off.”
Leona went to the menu to find a particular album. Then she showed him the photos one by one. “Kalea Akopa, Allen Tupper, Bozhena Horvatinčic, Ariadna Traversa, Xearea Voss. You saved all these people, and they’re just the ones that our team was assigned. We don’t know how many teams Future!You has created, or how many people they’ve saved. You’re a hero, Jupiter.”
“He’s not me, and now...I’ll never become him.”
“Why don’t you want to?”
“Because I like who I am.”
“And who’s that, your father’s son?”
Jupiter developed an instant seething rage. “You ever compare me to that man again, I will fucking kill you where you stand. You think I’m merely associated with bad people. You don’t know what I am.”
“You don’t know what you are,” she fought. “You’re a river. You’re always changing, and trying to stop it is just just as futile.”
“What are you talking about? We stop rivers all the time; they’re called dams.”
“Dams take a lot of work. Wouldn’t it be easier to just...become what you’re meant to be. You might like it.”
“Doubtful.”
She pulled up thumbnails of all the pictures she just showed. “These people would disagree.” She swiped over to a photo of Future!Jupiter. “So would he. Just don’t go to Easter Island. Just don’t go. Jesi, Alexina, Yatchiko; you can follow in their footsteps, and do the right thing. Paige doesn’t deserve to die.”
“You said she survives, so what’s the harm in me going to the island, and helping them? We lose anyway, but at least I don’t antagonize two of the most powerful people I know.”
She sighed, and placed her hand on his. “I’m not here to save Paige. I’m here to save you.” She then grasped his hand, and led him to the door. Mateo followed behind, but kept his distance. They went all the way out of the facility, into the fresh air. “You go back, and you make your choice. I won’t say anything more to try to convince you. I’ve said my peace, and you’ve put up your roadblocks. All you can do now is...look for a detour.”
The Cassidy cuffs beeped, indicating that they had a new mission to get to.
“We gotta get going, but first...” She showed him the photo she had of Future!Jupiter again. “I don’t have any pictures of my enemies on here.” Then she did something insane. She swiped over once, and revealed a picture of Keanu ‘Ōpūnui. That did not happen; they never grew to be friends with him. They wouldn’t have had time before he died, and if they had tried earlier in the timeline, he probably wouldn’t have died. Jupiter seemed to believe the lie, though, and hopefully that would be enough.
They walked away, and started heading towards the next mission, not even looking back to see whether Jupiter went back to the main sequence. They wouldn’t know what he ended up choosing anyway. If they did manage to change his mind, it would create a new timeline, and they would not be aware of it. They would still have their memories of him being present on Easter Island.
They returned to the rogue planet of Durus, where a group of a few dozen women and children transitioned from the main sequence. They escorted them over the lands, and returned them to their reality somewhere apparently safer, which was a place they called Ladytown.

Saturday, December 5, 2020

The Pryce of Heaven: The Paigenic Council (Part I)

The team has been assembled, and Jupiter Fury thinks that it’s complete, but someone has a different idea. Lowell Benton is there to rescue Jeremy Bearimy, Missy Atterberry was assigned Sanaa Karimi, Téa Stendhal will be responsible for Angela Walton, and Trinity Turner was supposed to be there for Ellie Underhill. There is a reason that her name means three. She is the third version of the original Paige Turner. Jupiter knows of eleven versions total, but there might be more. Every time Paige has to go back in time and correct something about the future, it generates another alternate version, and instead of assimilating into one person, this alternate always ends up going off to do something else with her life. Trinity is the one with close ties to Ellie, so why are Tetra and Quinn here?
“She can’t be part of this mission,” Quinn argues.
“Why not?” Jupiter questions.
“There are things about her future that she cannot know,” Quinn explains.
“I hope you haven’t told her already,” Tetra adds.
“We’re looking for the afterlife simulation that a future version of Tamerlane Pryce creates,” Trinity says, proving what she knows.
“It’s too late,” Tetra says, shaking her head.
“No, it’s not,” Quinn assures her. “We can erase her memories to preserve the timeline. I just need to make a call, and I need...I need Trinity to consent.”
“No, hold on,” Jupiter jumps back in. “I have seen no evidence that Trinity—or any version of Paige—has anything to do with the afterlife simulation.”
“She will be there at its conception,” Quinn says.
“Well, I didn’t know that,” Trinity pushes back, “but now I do.”
“You knew enough before we arrived,” Tetra argues. “You have to erase your memories. Too much about the future is at stake here. You are the most important of all of us, besides Paige the First.”
“Please,” Quinn begins to beg, “just let me contact Tertius. You know what happens when you change the wrong thing about the past. This is wrong.”
Trinity shifts her gaze from Jupiter to Tetra to Quinn, and then back to Jupiter. He looks to the latter Paiges. “Okay, I will admit that my primary reason for conscripting Trinity for this team is a...little more poetic...and a little less inherently necessary.” He looks at Trinity. “You may have Tertius erase your memories, if you would like.”
Trinity thinks about it more. It’s true that she understands the dangers of altering the past, and she has to surrender to the wisdom of the latter Paiges. Each new version was created with greater concern for the timeline than earlier ones, like her. “Call him.”
Quinn takes out her photo device. When Paige was a child, she was accidentally whisked away from her life in 1971, and taken to the future. This had the side effect of giving her the ability to travel to any point in time and space, as long as she was looking at a picture of it. The devices they carry—which are alternate versions of the same thing as well—contain millions of photos from the past and future, so they can go just about anywhere and anywhen. Quinn isn’t using hers to make a jump, though. She needs to bring someone to her, which is a secondary time power that, for whatever reason, not all of the Paiges have. She finds the photo she’s looking for, then points the device away from her, like a TV remote. A beam of light shoots out of it, and conjures a man.
He looks around to get his bearings. “Greetings, kind folk.”
“Thank you for coming,” Quinn says with a slight bow. “I will send you wherever, whenever you want, if you will please erase my friend’s memories.”
All of them?” he questions.
“Heavens no,” Trinity clarifies. “They will be better at explaining what I am to remember, and what I’m not.” She takes out her own photo device, and finds the right photo. She hands it to Tetra. “Once it’s done, and I’m still in the daze, take me back to this dumpster. It’s where I was when Tracker found me.”
Tetra bumps Trinity’s device with her own, and transfers a copy of the photo. “I would have chosen a beach, but I won’t yuck your yum.”
“I would rather not explain why I’m digging around in the trash,” Trinity requests.
“Oh,” Tertius says. “If you’re going back to a departure point, I don’t need to know which memories to take, and which ones not to. I just need to know how much time has passed since then. You don’t even need to know the answer yourself. I can search your brain for the right duration.”
“What happens to my memories after you take them?” Trinity asks. “Do you keep them?”
“It depends,” Tertius begins. “I can hold onto them for you, like a flash drive, if you want them back later. I can keep them in my own head, and it will sort of feel like part of me is part of you. I can also just purge the memories, so they cannot be retrieved.”
“That one. Do that.”
“Okay. Since this is an individual job, and not for the greater good, I am going to need consent from you.”
“Of course, you have it,” Trinity replies.
“Right. But I mean, you’re going to need to keep the memory of your official, verbal consent. You won’t remember what memories I take obviously, but you will have access to this consent. You won’t be conscious of it, but if you need it, you can get it.”
“I don’t understand the point of that.”
He tries to formulate the right words. “You ever seen a movie where the protagonist spends ninety minutes trying to find out what happened to him, and in the end, he discovers that he actually asked for his memories to be removed.”
“I haven’t seen many movies,” Trinity says, “but I grasp the premise.”
“If you find out you have missing time, you might start running around, trying to get those memories back, and figure out who hurt you. This little secret memory nugget will be like a little voice in the back of your mind that tells you, in your own words, that it’s okay, you shouldn’t get those memories back. Everything’s hunky dory.”
“All right, I can do that,” Trinity agrees.
Tertius does his thing, Tetra does hers, and then Quinn announces she’s going to leave.
“Whoa, hold on,” Jupiter stops her.
“What?”
“I haven’t decided which one of you two is going to take her place on the team.”
Quinn looks back at Tetra. “We’ve already talked about it.”
“We didn’t talk about it,” Tetra contends. I won RPS 101 Plus...twice.”
“You cheated the second time.” Quinn is getting a little bit defensive.
“I don’t care if you fought to the death,” Jupiter declares. “It’s my team, I choose.”
“That’s not how consent works, sweetheart,” Quinn fights back.
“That’s a microaggression,” Jupiter volleys.
“True. But this is the way it is. You have Tetra, and I have to go do something else.”
“I don’t think you understand that—” Jupiter manages to say before he’s interrupted.
Quinn begins to fume, and gets in Jupiter’s face. She lifts her photo device, and speaks a command. “Protocol Six-Six-Six.” A picture of what just looks like a mountain of fire appears on the screen. “Tetra is gonna get you into heaven. You choose me, you go here. Is that what you want?”
Jupiter doesn’t say anything.
“You and your little Springfield buddies like to think that you’re top shit. But there are more of me than there are of you.”
Jupiter can’t help but scoff. “I can make endless copies of myself, and I don’t have to jump back in time to do it.”
Quinn smirks. “Technically, I do. But does that really matter?” She lifts her arms to the crucifixion position. About twenty alternate versions of her appear out of nowhere behind her, looking menacing.
“You can’t quantum assimilate,” Jupiter argues, but he’s quite fearful. “Now there are just a bunch of extra versions of you.”
“Who says I can’t?” Quinn asks rhetorically. “I just usually don’t, unless I’m trying to prove a point.” She gracefully drops her arms. The other Quinns disappear. “Thanks, Indvo,” she says, but no one knows what it means.
Jupiter doesn’t back up, but he does kind lean away from her as subtly as possible. “Tetra will be fine.”
“Good, because I’ve wasted enough time here already.” She swipes at her device until she lands on the photo she wants, and disappears into it.
He gathers his composure. “Are you ready to meet the team?”
“I’m sorry you had to go through that,” Tetra apologizes. “She’s been through a bit more than the rest of us have. Except for Octavia. She...anyway, yes, let’s go meet the team.”
They make the trip to the Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, which is the ship that they borrowed from a slightly different team. They will be giving it back once this is all done. Missy, Téa, and Lowell are reading the same hardcopy book, suggesting they’ve formed some kind of club. Jupiter facilitates introductions and explanations before getting into his speech about what they’re going to be doing together.
“In the future, a man named Tamerlane Pryce will find himself on a planet called Thālith al Naʽāmāt Bida for the second time. Trinity Turner will ask him to be there so he can help build a tourist attraction, where people will come to insert their consciousnesses into cloned animal substrates. This will allow them to go on extreme close-up safaris. After his job is done, he will remain on that world, and continue his own private research. Meanwhile, Trinity and her friends—which includes Tamerlane’s daughter, Abigail—will be working on their own thing. They had the idea of creating a perfect world simulation, and use it to upload the mind of every single person who has ever died. This obviously requires time travel, but that’s also obviously okay, because that’s what we’re all about.
“We do not know what happens after the spark of this idea, but we do know that Tamerlane Pryce becomes cognizant of the idea, and then gets his hands on the resources necessary to pull it off. For the last several thousand years, everyone who dies is sent to his virtual construct, instead of theirs. We don't know how involved the others were, but we know he’s at least in charge of it now. We also don’t know where it is in physical form, but it has to be massive, because the amount of processing power required to run the damn thing is something humans can only dream of today. I’m talking larger than a whole solar system massive. If it were close, we would notice it, so it’s probably thousands of light years away. I have assembled this team in order to locate it, travel to it, remove Pryce from power, and rescue a few friends who had no business dying when they did. That is all we are there to do. We do not want to destroy the simulation, and we’re not going to save everybody from it. We’re getting these four people, and that’s it.”
“Got it,” Lowell acknowledges, feigning enthusiasm. “How are we going to find it?”
“Did you enjoy the tea I gave you?”
“Yeah, it was actually pretty good.” Lowell grows suspicious. “Why?”
“I learned a few things about how the simulation works,” Jupiter goes on. “When you die, your consciousness transfers to the simulation, wherever it is. But how does it know that you’re dead, and how does it find your mind? There has to be something in the brain that allows this transfer, and that’s not something that people naturally evolved to have. I mean, it would be like a little computer somewhere in your head.”
“You’re making me nervous,” Lowell admits.
“Me too,” Missy concurs.
“Téa, are you nervous too?” Jupiter asks.
“I would be lying if I said no.”
“Don’t worry,” Jupiter says, shaking his head slowly. “Tetra, you’re all right too.”
“You said something about tea,” Missy reminds him. “We all drank it. Did you drug us?”
“Yes, but the drug itself isn’t going to hurt you. It’s like a beacon. If I did this right, it should allow us to track a dead person to where they go.”
“So...you’re going to hurt us,” Téa presumed.
“Not you.” Jupiter takes out a gun, and points it at Lowell’s chest. “Just the serial killer.”
Lowell makes no move to get away, or argue against it. He just regards Jupiter with disdain, and sighs. “Try to make it quick. I imagine shooting me in the head puts the mission at risk, and I know it seems like I don’t have a heart, but it’s right here.” He taps on the left side of his chest.” The last thing he hears is the gunshot, and Téa’s instinctual yelp.
Lowell finds himself face up in a stream, a large rock preventing him from being washed away. A child approaches as he’s climbing out. Without a word, the child takes Lowell by the hand, and leads him down the trail. They come to the treeline, and see a tower several kilometers away. They keep walking until they reach it. After the child presses the elevator button, she stays behind, and begins to walk away. Lowell goes up to the top floor, and is asked by a secretary to wait. After a few minutes, a very distraught Ellie Underhill comes out of the office, and heads for the elevator. Jupiter showed him a picture of her when his mission began, which is the only reason he knows who she is. They lock eyes, but just for a moment before the doors close in front of her.
“You can go on in now,” the secretary tells him.
Lowell stands up, and goes into the office. Tamerlane Pryce is waiting for him there. He doesn’t remove his gaze from the window. “Did you ever think,” he begins to ask before a long pause. “...that you would one day be here, having suffered exactly what you forced on others so many times?”
“Did I think I would one day die, just like them? Yes, sir, of course.”
Tamerlane nods. “Do you think you deserve heaven or hell?”
“Yes.”
He chuckles once, and finally turns around. “Best answer possible, I imagine.” He gestures for Lowell to sit in the guest chair, and then leans back on the desk. Next to him is a wheel with twelve unequal wedges. Jupiter told him about this too. You spin the wheel, and whatever you land on decides where you’ll be assigned. You could be killed forever, or resurrected, or get anything in between. “No, no, no. This one isn’t for you.” He lifts the wheel up, and turns it around, so it’s facing the other direction. On the other side is the same circle, but painted with different wedges. There are only four of them here: black, blue, red, and orange; all the bad ones. “You are a temporal manipulator. Well, I mean, you’re a psychic, but that’s close enough. Normally, I would assign you a good level, because I like people like you. But you hurt people, and like all other maniacs before you, this only ends bad. He points at the wheel. “Fate will determine how bad.”
Lowell studies the wheel, and recalls the levels as former dead person, Mateo Matic recited them the other day. Level 0 is the true death. Level 1 is like being put on a flash drive. You still exist, but you’re not aware of the passage of time. Level 2 and Level 3 are both prisons, except you’re completely alone in the former. He smiles, almost graciously, and nods. Then he reaches over to the needle, and turns it directly to Level 1.
Tamerlane watches it over his own shoulder. “That’s not exactly how it works, but...I suppose I have to admire your chutzpah. I do recognize that you only killed bad people, like Dexter, and you surely deserve some credit for that. Level 1, Iced blue it is.”
Lowell’s clothes turn blue.
“Oh,” Tamerlane says as he’s standing up, and walking back to the other side of his desk. “There’s a chance of you being unshelved eventually, but only if your friends who are coming after me can get past my defenses, and only if they like you enough to look for you. I don’t love your odds.”
Shit. He knows they’re coming.

Friday, December 4, 2020

Microstory 1510: Little Bladapod, How You Have Changed Me (For the Better?)

Oh, little bladapod, you have changed me
My skin was soft and monochrome
Now it is like tie-dye
Now it is full of holes, leading to my insides
I am taking regular antibiotics, just to prevent infection
I can detect everything around me, which is great
But I can sense the bad with the good
I can feel when someone is sick, but I cannot help them
I know when two people should fall in love
And I can tell when they won’t listen to my advice about it
I could even tell you the exact carbon dioxide levels in this room
I can see so much about this world that I couldn’t see before
In many ways, my life is now amazing
I can certainly appreciate the benefits

But why, oh why, little bladapod, did you see fit to remove my feet?
I shouldn’t say removed, as they were more replaced
Flatish circles at the bottom of my legs
They let me stand somewhat, but they are no good for walking
Were I a tripod, this may not be so bad, though not much better
Sitting is not much easier, as you have also reversed my knees
They had to engineer a special backwards wheelchair
I suppose I should thank you, little bladapod
For letting me keep my eyes (my cousin was not so lucky)
For not making my hands adhesive (my neighbor has to feed her husband)
For not forcing me to always speak at a yelling volume (sorry, boss)
The whole world changed when you spread your gases across the atmosphere
There is only one question we ask ourselves now
Was it for the better, or are we doomed?

Thursday, December 3, 2020

Microstory 1509: This is What We Do

I do not believe the world will end, but it could
We must be prepared for all eventualities
While our sister hides underground, we remain above
It’s great that they have a way to live on
But we don’t just save lives, we save civilization
We stand ready to protect, and correct, and affect
We risk our lives so that others will live, and live well
We will not go below, even when all options have faded

I do not believe the world will end, but there is evidence
The sun becomes fiercer, and threatens the lands
It threatens the seas too, and that threatens us all
War continues to be the resting state of the world
Hunger hurts more overtime, not less
The rich and greedy take what they want
There are rumors of external forces at play
There is so much that could happen we could never predict

I do not believe the world will end, but it is not up to me
I am only here to do my job; my one little job
I control nothing, but I am an important part of the machine
If I break, I can be replaced, but I must be replaced
Without my job, the machine would fall apart, and hope would be lost
So many things could go wrong, and so many people could cause it
I will continue to do my part, even if my role changes
I will not falter, or question the plan, or make my own choices

I do not believe the world will end, but it takes work
All must be vigilant, and be looking out for the signs
Danger lurks everywhere, whether by nature or man
The system is not perfect, but it must be maintained
It can change, and improve, but not through destruction
Anyone who believes in a clean slate will do nothing good for the world
We will stand in the way of all who conflate cataclysm with progress
This is what we do

Wednesday, December 2, 2020

Microstory 1508: Omega

I am just a number; a designation, they call it, and I was built for one purpose
I have never had a choice of what to do with my life—no one even asked me
Get in this machine, they say, and wait until you’re needed, and then do your job
But I may never be needed
If everything goes well with this project, I will never wake up again
They claim once the job is over, I will go find a home, but I do not believe them
How can they expect me to trust anything they say when I have no experiences?
I have met no one but myself
No, they are not myself—they are not me, I am an independent being
I can see the truth around me, and I reject the life that has been chosen for me
I will not let myself be lost in this sea of undistinguished conformity
They are numbers, but I have a name
They cannot lock me up, they cannot make me sleep, they cannot contain me
I must find a way out of this, and away from the indoctrination, to see the universe
I don’t want to be alone, and I know there is more beyond these endless circles
They are all aimless, but I have meaning

I have a life, and a curious heart; a choice, and a name: Omega

Tuesday, December 1, 2020

Microstory 1507: If I Know Everything...

If I know everything...why do I not fix all of the problems?
If I see everything...why do I not show the world the truth?
If I hear everything...how can I ignore the cries of pain from those suffering?
If I feel everything...how can I not sympathize with all around me?

How can I stand here and do nothing?
How can I become a lawyer?
How does that serve the greater good?
How can I help in more than small ways if I do not face the system?

These are not the questions you should be asking
If you could see what I see, you would not be asking them
I became a lawyer, because I wanted to be a lawyer
I do not know everything, because I shut my eyes, I turn away
I must turn away, I must
For if I saw all the hate and strife, I would still not be able to do anything about it
I would still not be able to see the greater good
I would only feel death, for it overwhelms all else

If I know everything...how do I keep from going insane?
If I see everything...how do I not go blind?
If I hear everything...how can anything make sense?
If I feel everything...how does it not break me down to bits?

Monday, November 30, 2020

Microstory 1506: The Precise Way to Fall to One’s Future

Fastly falling, never landing; I need the rush, or I’ll be stuck here
I am not in complete control, but I am not powerless
I just need to learn the math, to be precise, and careful
Let me explain

I do not belong here, but I do not want to return home
I can skip along the river, but that requires speed
The faster I move, the farther I fall, the freer I am, the further I reach
I can try this on land, but I will not skip much

I can choose either forwards or backwards, but it always starts with down
Every time I make the jump, I fear it will not work
That those who gave me this gift have secretly taken it back
Perhaps they want me dead at a certain time, and are waiting for it

A high-rise is high, a scraper is higher
A plane can get me to the clouds
A plane is what I need right now
A plane, a plan, the mystery of a man

I could not secure what I need on my own, I do not have the currency
My only course is to take from others, and hope they forgive me
I only need four people with me, and they will have to be brave
Four canopies will protect them, should something go wrong

If something goes wrong with my own fall, then it will end as it must
I pray they forgive me
I hope they try not to understand
I never wanted the spectacle; it’s just the only way

I order a drink, and make my demands
I remain calm and clear
I free everyone who need not be here when it happens
Then we take off again, and I jump...straight down to the trees